I’m tired because I haven’t slept well for many months. I really need to disappear right now. I need to try to repair myself away from the blog. I cannot do all this anymore. I hide my pain but it only lingers around me. I feel totally alone and lost. I have never felt this fragile in my entire life. This isn’t me. I would rather others not see my vulnerable side. I don’t want others to see me in the state that I’m heading toward. I do not wish to annoy others or feel like a burden. My life is no longer anyone else’s concern. I just wish happiness for others and love. Something I could never ever find. It is complicated. And that is why I need time and space on my own.