I am going to try hard not to go into detail but I have not had a very pleasant night. I have never been so bad before. I’ve had the most horrendous monthlies for a few years which has made me aneamic. But it was so much worse during the night. To cut out the… Read More Been horrendously ill all night. Things are affecting me extremely badly.
I’m really feeling sad tonight. I can’t see how everything I’ve been through has happened for a reason. I’m distraught over all the horrible things that have happened in my life. I have never felt traumatised this much in my entire life. I literally have to take painkillers and diazepam (which I’ve had to buy… Read More ‘Everything happens for a reason’. I run through my artistic pursuits of the last 18 months… to try to make myself feel better about current circumstances.
I have absolutely no desire to upset anyone else here but I simply can’t function in regards to how things are anymore. I am distressed and extremely anxious on a daily basis because of how things remain. Also, the things that were said to me by those that didn’t understand my disability has absolutely ripped… Read More Things can’t stay as they are any more. This is very important.
I haven’t really been awake a lot today because I feel rather ill. It’s just the normal monthly crap as well as an added stomach upset. These can happen together anyway. There are many symptoms hormones can give you and they vary. I have quite severe stomach ache still but I think the worse of… Read More I don’t feel well tonight / a warning about challenging dark energy (which you think might be bringing bad luck). And finally a bit of science behind anti depressants.
I learned something today while listening to a radio show on the way home from somewhere in the car. This illustrates how naïve I actually am because I didn’t have a clue that other women thought this way. As someone who wasn’t popular at school or even in their group of hangers on, I didn’t… Read More This is the depth of how naïve I’ve been the whole of my life so far. Introducing….
I do like the hot weather because it’s a lot better than what we normally get but I feel unproductive enough as it is without contending against this heat. I should have done a few things but I didn’t get the chance because I took two dosages of diazepam and knocked myself out for a… Read More So much to do, so little enthusiasm to do it… the weather doesn’t help. Reoccurring thoughts causing me mental illness.
I took some Diazepam last night to finally get some proper sleep. I doubled the dosage because I was that desperate to sleep. I later regretted that because it literally knocked me out all day. It’s not something I’d recommend people doing even if they are absolutely are desperate for sleep. I woke up feeling… Read More Random dreams, Being younger than my age and a warning about using Diazepam.
I want to go public now because I have felt bullied for over 3 years and every time I tried to retaliate I got punished. I had a university point blankly refuse to understand my type of Autism. They NEVER put in ANY accommodations for me. I only said what I said that started the… Read More Right, I’m going public because I’ve had enough here.
Mister brought a mouse in with him last night. I but him in my draw all night away from the cats (it’s a canvas type bedside table so it was quite practical in this case). I had several people tell me to put him out of his misery because it looked like he was suffering.… Read More Em was right, and it is quite lucky I listened to my intuition.
I was suppose to be going out this morning but I got up and felt extremely crap. I didn’t go because I barely slept last night. I had the best intentions to go to the community group today. I even painted my nails. I haven’t done that in a while (mainly because they’ve been quite… Read More I’ve never felt this awful before. Breakdown mode is so close now.