I am tired right now. It’s a positive tired feeling because I’ve kept myself busy all day. I wasn’t able to fall asleep (despite being tired) to have a nap, so I ended up getting up and doing things around the flat. I have to make the most of the times I can summon enough physical energy to do those kinds of tasks. It doesn’t happen very often nowadays. I need to try to improve my energy levels because if I have to try to get a job in order to get by (if I can’t get PIP back), then I will need energy to be able to do any job. I know that I’m getting more exhausted, more often and I’m hoping that I can find the cause of it. I’m currently having tests to try to get to the bottom of it. I have a blood test in the morning.
I can’t go on in this way because there are times that I get home and the exhaustion is that debilitating I just go to bed. I don’t even care if it’s early afternoon. When it’s literally at the point where it is actually painful to stay awake, this is absolute worse times. I keep getting migraines at the moment too. It is probably not helping with the stress of exams. Even if I did start to go out to socialise again, I’d not have the energy to do so. I barely have enough energy to do every day things at times. I can be okay at the start of the day. I then go out to do whatever I have on. I come back and I have to sleep because I literally can’t stay awake. I don’t feel like I can live a ‘normal’ life because I never know when it is going to ‘zap all my energy away’.