My past is off limits now!

I have had enough of people raking my past up. I am going to put everyone straight right now. The things people keep going on about were done when I was only 17 years old. A very backward 17 year old. I was more like a 12 year old mentally back then. And the other mistakes have been caused by me never having had a proper relationship in my life! Lack of experience not malice. It’s not about knowing right from wrong. It’s about not having that experience to do the expected things. I’ve had enough of peoples assumptions and I’ve been driven to attempt to commit suicide because of them.

I’ve never had a boyfriend or even a girlfriend. I don’t know how to be in a relationship without being a screw up. And you wonder why I want to be given a new identity to start again free of my past. This is why because others won’t get to know me now. I’ve been on those probation courses and it’s changed me as a person because I learned things I naturally didn’t know. I’ve been punished enough several times over. Now it’s time to give it a rest. I’ve had my son adopted (denied a family) and can’t ever see or speak to the one person I miss so much due legalities. I am made to suffer day in day out due to what had happened so please don’t make it any harder.