Those of you who know me in offline life will most likely be aware that the things I’ve been through affects me quite badly at times. I logically know that police officers will from time to time go to meet with probation officers. I don’t have my logical brain when I go into extreme fear… Read More Anxiety sent through the roof today.
I have decided to become harder and more guarded in my personality because half of the the people I’ve let into my life never deserved to be there. I have already changed my email address about 6 months ago. Those that have tried to get hold of me on my old email will get an… Read More Modifying my personality…
I have had a few comments from various people over the last day about getting help for how I’m feeling. That isn’t going to actually help me. Help comes in many forms. It isn’t just helping the person directly. There is absolutely no benefit in helping me directly. I have stopped the outwardly expression of… Read More Help is in many different forms.
I really wasn’t up to getting up this morning. I have managed to get up but only because I know that I need help with my Maths before the exam which is literally next week. I’ve got so much to do when I get back home. I have to get over here much earlier than… Read More Tired 😦 and something has just occurred to me while listening to the radio.
I know that this will be something that others either do or do not believe in. Those that know me will be aware that I do believe in because I’ve grown up being able to just feel things etc. This may sound a little insane to those that don’t believe in any of it and… Read More Past lives etc.
I have got to the point where I cannot even face getting up and living the reality as it currently is. I can’t do lies and to me it seems like a complete lie because I’m having to constantly pretend that things being left the way that they are don’t bug me. If I break… Read More I don’t even want to get up anymore.
I’m finding things quite hard right now. I cannot concentrate on anything because my head just isn’t present half of the time. I don’t want to sound like a sensitive loser here. But to those of you who have absolutely no understanding of PDA, this is how I may look. I’m used to looking like… Read More How things affect me.
I couldn’t wake up until extremely late today. I was just stupidly exhausted. I can’t go on like this because I sleep most of the time and don’t get anything done. I managed to do my next Maths paper but not any of my other revision. I don’t think I have all of my Maths… Read More Exhaustion is getting irritating and other things are bugging me.
I thought I’d write about this topic after a conversation I had earlier with someone younger than myself who hasn’t lost their naivety yet. I used to be like them but after my experiences I’m certainly not anymore. They were under the false impression that people will understand your condition if they explain it to… Read More The harsh realities you learn when you’ve matured…
I went to bed with 6 detox pads on last night. 1 on each ankle, 1 on each foot and two on my stomach. Those are all the areas I feel the bloat in at certain times. I woke up thirsty but that’s to be extremely expected when you wear twice the recommended patches at… Read More Detoxed and avoiding.