I don’t think this will work.

I simply cannot cold turkey off of the painkillers. I touch my skin and it aches because the nerve endings are sensitive. I haven’t got a headache yet but it’s something that can happen because it has previously when I tried to cold turkey. I know that they’re not helping my weight either. I’m constantly bloated which can get quite depressing. I am feeling very fragile. I can’t touch anywhere on my body without it hurting. I think that my dodgy knee may be kicking off again. It’s got a bit of fluid on top of it. Hopefully by Tuesday I don’t feel this awful because I want to go back the Gym. I haven’t been for the last two weeks. I’ve been so busy and not well enough to go. I need to make my gym membership worth the money or it is £75 to get out of it. I also struggle with anxiety because sometimes I just don’t feel like being in a room exercising with others present. 

I was woken up by the cats this morning. There’s a black and white one that turns up sometimes. He doesn’t appear very often now. I haven’t seen him since the summer. He popped his head around my curtain earlier. It caused a load of hissing and growling from one of my cats and Dave. This woke me up. They’re all happy now anyway.  Dave has gone outside and so has the black and white one.  Mister has calmed down and come back to sleep on the bed. I think Mimi is under the bed in the draw part (dissapears in there for hours and hours). I fell asleep with Mimi next to me, but when I woke up, Mister was next to me. They do that all the time. It’s very rare that I wake up next to the same cat that was there when I fell asleep.

Sorry that this is so short today. I feel absolutely terrible. I just want the withdrawal effects to end.