Assumptions are never helpful.

I would like others to please resist the urge to make assumptions about what has and hasn’t happened in my case. I’m cooperating as much as possible. I have done a huge amount of work behind the scenes to try to get the facts of this case straight after finding out about the contract etc. The reason it was transferred up to the next court was more to do with jurisdiction, not just the alleged offenses (and that is an important word to keep in mind here because my intent has never been fully proven). It was set to be heard in the lower court up until late last week. There has been a discussion throughout about the lower court not having the jurisdiction to reconsider previously made decisions. I know this because I wrote to them a while back and received a personal reply from someone that worked at the lower court. That is extremely rare. It basically told me that only the court above them could potentially reverse any decisions. They were genuinely sympathetic to my situation (which is also highly unusual). So please do not try to tell me that I’m not doing enough. I am doing more than most people to sort this out for everyone involved. I’m doing it because I care about my own future and the other person. I don’t want things to stagnate as they are for either of us because it’s emotionally destructive. It will only lead to guilt and wishing things had been different, which isn’t constructive. The things that have happened need to be laid on the table to the relevant authorities and there needs to be a way forward decided that doesn’t include indefinite orders etc. Orders that put pressure on those involved (mainly me) to conform to a standard that they can not meet (mainly me) due to disability is a destructive way forward. I would like to make a point that anyone who was aware of that contract which was signed by the other person to say they wouldn’t communicate with me could also be seen as being in contempt of court. They willingly had this information in their knowledge and didn’t say anything at the time of the hearing which led to the court’s decisions. If a solicitor is aware of something like that (which I don’t know if the solicitor involved at the time was or not), then they could be ‘struck off’ by the law society for that kind of dishonest behaviour. I am aware that it most likely wasn’t intentional. I don’t want others to get into any trouble over it. It is just weird how when I started asking questions originally, everyone involved closed ranks and ‘disappeared’.

I would like to make a point that anyone who was aware of that contract which was signed by the other person to say they wouldn’t communicate with me could also be seen as being in contempt of court. They willingly had this information in their knowledge and didn’t say anything at the time of the hearing which led to the court’s decisions. If a solicitor is aware of something like that (which I don’t know if the solicitor involved at the time was or not), then they could be ‘struck off’ by the law society for that kind of dishonest behaviour. I am aware that it most likely wasn’t intentional. I don’t want others to get into any trouble over it. It is just weird how when I started asking questions originally, everyone involved closed ranks and ‘disappeared’.

And there is another point that I’d like to make. I ask that others respect my beliefs in regards to having intuitive abilities etc. I’m not mentally ill. There are plenty of people who can do those things that haven’t been labelled mentally ill and they can do the exact same things. If I was delusional, then those dreams that I’ve had in the past would not have materialised into waking life. e.g when I had a dream about my Dad’s death only 8 weeks before it happened. I also sense things, which is why I get annoyed when I know something is going to happen and no one is listening to me to prevent it. e.g. this whole situation with the university etc. I have no previous knowledge of things in people’s lives and I can just ‘come out with it’ and that normally freaks people out… doesn’t help make friends. I’m only saying what I’m picking up and sometimes I’m not even aware that I’m doing it. I just get the urge to say something and then the other person is like… how did you know that? If I was mad then I wouldn’t be accurate like that. I can’t help that side of me. It’s not something that I can ‘switch off’. It happens at random, it’s not something that I can go up to someone and say let’s do this to see what I pick up. It gets in the way of friendships/relationships. I always know intuitively when someone isn’t being straight with me and ask them straight out… this kind of thing causes a hell of a lot of arguments. I am also Pagan. So please do what the ‘British values codes state (something they are promoting as part of the PREVENT program) and respect my beliefs, faith, and opinions. This means accepting that I do not think like you, or believe in the things that you do. The things that you believe in just doesn’t seem logical to me. And this doesn’t mean that my mind is mentally ill. This means that we see things from different perspectives. You can’t see things from my perspective if you’ve never experienced my experiences. 

It is quite difficult on a daily basis when you sense everything. I also believe that there are signs sent to us in our daily lives. Number sequences I see for instance. Yesterday (court hearing date), I saw four car number plates with the number 777 on them. I saw two magpies on my walk in the morning and two magpies later on that day. Those occurrences are extremely rare in such greater number and I’ve never seen two magpies together since the whole situation started. I’ve seen one magpie quite a lot, so I firmly believe in the superstitions. I also have a feeling that I’m getting through to those that matter which will finally put the case to rest. I’ve not had that feeling all the way through. This isn’t me being overly optimistic. Those that know me will know that I swing between being a realist and a pessimist. That comes with my life experiences and the anxiety that I live with on a daily basis. There are things that have lifted because I can feel it. This will be a major start to repairing everything that has happened. Alongside the ‘everything happens for a reason concept’, there is also one that consists of wishing for things hard enough, basically conquering up a miracle. This can happen if you learn how to deal with the energies that surround you and others, then work with them, rather than against them. 

There is nothing that is impossible in this world. It’s about the right energies and timing. You have to learn what not to subconsciously send out there to others when you are fearful and angry. That is a very difficult skill to master, especially when you’re quite upset and emotional over things that have happened. I’ve learned to combat this because I’ve just passed the third module of my Wiccan Practitioner Diploma. I don’t know if I’ve accidentally released my childlike energy with it because since I’ve started that I’ve increasingly aged in regards to maturity. I may have had an energy block that kept me stuck in a childlike immature state that this course has now released me from. Until you get rid of any energy blocks, you cannot have the life that you desire. It’s the equivalent to a ‘level up’ on a computer game. And, the challenges we face in life to get what we want eventually are like ‘fighting the boss’ in those games. It is exactly like that. This is the best way that I can describe the process for those that aren’t believers.