It is quite annoying when people can actually notice that I’m on the painkillers due to how bloated they make me. I don’t have many left. I know that my body can take the end of the pack and then I’m giving them up because I’m strong enough to do that nearly. I know that… Read More I know my own body. I can do this fight one last time.

I always assumed that certain abilities of mine weren’t positive but I now see that I can use them to my advantage. I can feel energies and control them to influence aspects of life. I’ve been able to do this my entire life. I just needed to learn how to use it. There is some… Read More Using my abilities that others don’t understand. I don’t even fully understand these things.

I have been for a long walk today. This was the easiest part of the day. I’ve been trying to train the Cat not to keep peeing in my rented flat so that it doesn’t end up smelling in here. It has been suggested that I put him outside every time he does it inside.… Read More It’s been one of those days….

I got others thinking that I was suicidal after last night’s post. I’m not in that frame of mind but I just want my suffering to end. I’m so fed up of being ill all the time. I also got a migraine and started taking the painkillers that I was addicted to after weeks of… Read More I don’t want to end my life but can’t stand suffering any longer.

I have a migraine which is going right through my head. I can’t even sleep with sleep medication. I can’t relax because I’m constantly feeling hot so I’m kicking covers off my bed every so often. I feel like I have a cold on top of everything. I wish that my dad would come collect… Read More No more please. I absolutely am done!

The whole of today I have just felt extremely stressed. The cat is still spraying everywhere and I haven’t had barely any energy myself. I have tried to clean the cats mess up but it still doesn’t feel properly done to me. We cannot go on like this because it is driving me mad. I… Read More Just feeling stressed!

I started the new tablets the GP has prescribed so that I stop getting anaemic from my monthlies. I feel okay so far but I’m hoping that they work. I’ve heard that they work in most cases but I am really wanting to finally stop going in circles with getting anaemia all the time. It… Read More First day on new tablets. So far it’s going okay.

I’ve read things today which I have literally been saying for years. NAS isn’t fit for purpose. It has NEVER been fit for purpose. I am very sorry if by some miracle that they have been helpful to you personally… but in most cases they’ve not been helpful to the majority of those on the… Read More I have been saying the same thing for years…

I regret watching Netflix last night. I watched the whole of the ‘After Life’ series. I wasn’t planning to do that, but the episodes weren’t that long so I just kept watching until the end of them. I wasn’t able to sleep consistently. I kept waking up due to one reason or another. I got up… Read More Bad night’s sleep and got nothing done today.

I had a weird dream last night. It wasn’t too nightmarish. I wasn’t scared but I still don’t know what it means. Although, I did write it down because something told me that it had some kind of meaning. It went as follows (this is from the notes I made when I woke up): Big… Read More Weird dream last night