• There’s things that bug me about the system…

    I saw something online earlier about the rule that adopted children aren’t allowed their photos published on public things. It makes sense in cases where there are children who have genuinely been removed for abuse but out of those that are adopted there are a very small percentage of those types of scenarios. Most babies…

  • I don’t do politics but I feel that I need to say this…

    I’m not into politics, I think it’s a system created to just cause more division, but as a disabled person it affects my life. Those that are in power at the moment aren’t representing the people from average backgrounds. The prime minister and others within government should NOT be those with vast amounts of money…

  • This whole karma stuff is confusing and makes no sense. Two examples from my life illustrates this.

    The whole ‘do good and you’ll get good things come to you’ makes no sense and in reality. I did good stuff that never came back to me. For instance, let’s go right back to when I was a child. How did I have such bad karma when I was only 8? I was pushed…

  • The video I promised…

  • I don’t think people realise how my reality is not a choice and I’m not portraying it in a negative light.

    I’m not portraying my life in a negative way. This is purely the reality of my life having a form of autism. I have tried to change my life but it’s never progressed in any way. The comments about how I see everything as negative is wrong. I am merely discussing the reality of being…

  • I have explained this so many times, and I will do it again…

    I don’t know how people just don’t get this but I will try to explain it again. If someone couldn’t walk, talk or whatever… that would be obviously caused by a disability which is visible to to others. If someone is prejudice or treats them in a negative way because of those characteristics it would…

  • I never wanted to be a ‘creator’.

    I have woken up for a while so going to post next blog entry before I forget. This is going to be about accidentally becoming a creator when I never had that intention back in 2016. I started this blog in 2016. Previously I had ran a autism website but it had passed its best…

  • Fate being different could have changed my life completely.

    This isn’t specifically getting at the NHS but it’s saying what happened in a series of events led to the reality that I find myself today. The NHS didn’t find what killed my dad in 2010 and to be honest the treatment they gave him for his lung condition was basically a load of medications…

  • This is my life… no one has the right to judge unless they too experience it.

    After being awake all night… again for the millionth time in weeks. I would just like to express how annoying my reality can be. I am weird. That is just one of those things. I do however have to be weird to cope with certain things. You have absolutely no idea what it is like…

  • It shouldn’t be this way.

    I saw something online where a young woman was saying that she felt safer and more secure in prison than in the outside world. I have heard similar accounts from others when I was inside briefly for a month in 2018 due to the whole breaking the restraining order situation. There were many women who…

  • I can’t sleep so I’m just going to have a brutally honest rant.

    Insomnia has got me again. So… it’s time for a rant. Those that tell me there is help and support out there if you ask. That is complete bullshit. Especially if you have a condition such as autism. I was obviously crying out for help in the past. I didn’t get any. I got punished…

  • This country is full of greedy rich people. This is what needs to happen but they won’t listen.

    We need to get the rich people in this country to find their humanity again (or for the first time if they were born into a super rich privileged background). The plan for if I won the lottery they can do now. The bosses of the energy companies putting their prices up to stupid amounts…

  • Energy flops are annoying.

    I had the plan to come home from walk and do stuff that needed doing around the house. I had my dinner and then my energy flopped. I managed to get dishes washed, clean clothes out the washing machine and cats their evening meal before I had to get into bed. I may have accidentally…

  • People change…

    I will always have my autism diagnosis but it’s just a label. People change underneath at their base personality due to things they’ve been through. I have a rule now. When it comes to others, you do NOT touch the Em. I think of myself as a product not a person when it comes to…

  • I feel awful today.

    I woke up in a lot of pain. I’m not up yet because I’m comfortable in bed for a few more hours. The weather is crap anyway. It’s been raining for a few hours. I’m probably going to have this week off the gym to recover. I had to do that the other week because…

  • Home at last!

    I got home quite late. I wasn’t walking but I still felt like a block of ice now that it’s gone colder. I have a knee that always goes achy when the weather turns cold. It has been very irritating the last couple of days. I have got in the bath to thaw out because…

  • One of my worse fears.

    I watched Corrie tonight. I knew that the storyline was coming up but the fear is now unlocked in me again. I have a fear of being acid attacked. It has become more and more common over the last few years. There shouldn’t be anyone this awful walking around doing this… there are some dangerous…

  • I’m fed up with this shit.

    I’m trying to do my best with the sleep pattern that I have and regardless of how hard I try my mother is unsupportive and takes her anger out on me about things that I haven’t even had any control over nothing to do with me. I’ve done everything for years but the system has…