The going for a nap thing has made today feel like two days due to my pattern being sleep for hours, wake up for a few over a long period of time. Anyway, I’m going to sound crazy here (which I know is somewhat normal) but the first time I woke up today I am… Read More Today has felt like two.

Technically I’m getting done more than normal because I did a few bits when I got up. I had some food. I let my hair dry probably and put it in a low bun to go for a nap. I think the cats are joining me as they’ve just jumped on the bed. Sleeping is… Read More I really tried hard. I can’t do a whole day on two hours sleep!

I have spent half the night bleaching my hair. I finished that at about 4 am. I am feeling cold despite putting the heating on before I went to bed. It doesn’t help with my hair still being damp. It’s drying slowly but it’s still wet a bit. I wish it would dry quicker it’s… Read More Another sleepless night.

I have had the bleach on my hair for long enough now to chill out about being potentially allergic to it. I was nervous after the last time when a red mark developed on my neck. It went down and I was fine so I did my whole head tonight to get rid of some… Read More Processing hoping I’m not allergic.

I haven’t been awake long because that sleep pattern is so hard to break out of with that constantly on my mind (see previous blog entry). I have such a messy flat because if I’m going for a walk I have not much time when I get back to clean. That isn’t great for my… Read More Cycles are hard to break.

The things that I want to happen so much is keeping me awake again because my intuition knows that no one will ever give me what I need. A definitely won’t and my intuition says it will never happen. S won’t ever be friends with me again. That I’m not so bothered about because I… Read More It’s keeping me awake again.

I am kind of sleepy tonight so I will probably be asleep soon. I was nearly asleep but got up to go toilet. The cats tried to follow me and ask for food barely three hours after they were fed. I still have my cold so my nose and head keep filling up. I got… Read More Nights are peaceful.

I got a reply back from the place I was told to write to for the issue of the 117 section aftercare. Well, it turned out to be a complete waste of time because I was diverted back to the council. I have got hold of the social worker whom I have a meeting with… Read More And it’s back on the round in circles merry go round of the system.

I have woken up (I know it’s really late again but sleep pattern is a mess) knowing exactly what my decision is going to be. I’m not going to be telling the university the details of the lies which I told about A. I won’t do the right thing unless she drops the order. We… Read More I’m not doing it.

I have woken up for a while so going to post next blog entry before I forget. This is going to be about accidentally becoming a creator when I never had that intention back in 2016. I started this blog in 2016. Previously I had ran a autism website but it had passed its best… Read More I never wanted to be a ‘creator’.