• There’s things that bug me about the system…

    I saw something online earlier about the rule that adopted children aren’t allowed their photos published on public things. It makes sense in cases where there are children who have genuinely been removed for abuse but out of those that are adopted there are a very small percentage of those types of scenarios. Most babies…

  • I don’t do politics but I feel that I need to say this…

    I’m not into politics, I think it’s a system created to just cause more division, but as a disabled person it affects my life. Those that are in power at the moment aren’t representing the people from average backgrounds. The prime minister and others within government should NOT be those with vast amounts of money…

  • This whole karma stuff is confusing and makes no sense. Two examples from my life illustrates this.

    The whole ‘do good and you’ll get good things come to you’ makes no sense and in reality. I did good stuff that never came back to me. For instance, let’s go right back to when I was a child. How did I have such bad karma when I was only 8? I was pushed…

  • The video I promised…

  • I don’t think people realise how my reality is not a choice and I’m not portraying it in a negative light.

    I’m not portraying my life in a negative way. This is purely the reality of my life having a form of autism. I have tried to change my life but it’s never progressed in any way. The comments about how I see everything as negative is wrong. I am merely discussing the reality of being…

  • I have explained this so many times, and I will do it again…

    I don’t know how people just don’t get this but I will try to explain it again. If someone couldn’t walk, talk or whatever… that would be obviously caused by a disability which is visible to to others. If someone is prejudice or treats them in a negative way because of those characteristics it would…

  • I never wanted to be a ‘creator’.

    I have woken up for a while so going to post next blog entry before I forget. This is going to be about accidentally becoming a creator when I never had that intention back in 2016. I started this blog in 2016. Previously I had ran a autism website but it had passed its best…

  • Fate being different could have changed my life completely.

    This isn’t specifically getting at the NHS but it’s saying what happened in a series of events led to the reality that I find myself today. The NHS didn’t find what killed my dad in 2010 and to be honest the treatment they gave him for his lung condition was basically a load of medications…

  • This is my life… no one has the right to judge unless they too experience it.

    After being awake all night… again for the millionth time in weeks. I would just like to express how annoying my reality can be. I am weird. That is just one of those things. I do however have to be weird to cope with certain things. You have absolutely no idea what it is like…

  • It shouldn’t be this way.

    I saw something online where a young woman was saying that she felt safer and more secure in prison than in the outside world. I have heard similar accounts from others when I was inside briefly for a month in 2018 due to the whole breaking the restraining order situation. There were many women who…

  • I can’t sleep so I’m just going to have a brutally honest rant.

    Insomnia has got me again. So… it’s time for a rant. Those that tell me there is help and support out there if you ask. That is complete bullshit. Especially if you have a condition such as autism. I was obviously crying out for help in the past. I didn’t get any. I got punished…

  • This country is full of greedy rich people. This is what needs to happen but they won’t listen.

    We need to get the rich people in this country to find their humanity again (or for the first time if they were born into a super rich privileged background). The plan for if I won the lottery they can do now. The bosses of the energy companies putting their prices up to stupid amounts…

  • Energy flops are annoying.

    I had the plan to come home from walk and do stuff that needed doing around the house. I had my dinner and then my energy flopped. I managed to get dishes washed, clean clothes out the washing machine and cats their evening meal before I had to get into bed. I may have accidentally…

  • Depressed… got to be up early.

    I have to be up in about 4 hours for gas safety check. They always come to do it early. I’ve taken a zopiclone to make sure I sleep and an antihistamine to make sure allergies don’t keep me awake. I have a hard time linking sentences together after taking my medication. Yesterday I rested…

  • Maybe you’re not the problem…

    I have been blaming myself for years and feeling really bad when things didn’t work out with other people. I was constantly trying to think how I could’ve been better to not be rejected etc. I always told myself that I probably should’ve not told anyone the truth about how I saw their actions after…

  • Depression is mixed with physical issues right now.

    I fell asleep but then woke up again even with a sleeping tablet. I wasn’t able to get back to sleep. I feel like crap. I’m leading up to monthly in a few weeks. I have really achy ankles filled with water. I feel it stuck there. I still feel depressed. I just don’t want…

  • A note on our criminal justice system…

    I was watching the storyline involving daisy’s stalker in coronation street. He rightfully was found guilty, throwing acid in someone’s face is out of order even if they’ve rejected you. It hurts but you have to suck it up without retaliating. I would like to say something about our criminal justice system in the uk.…

  • I had a good sleep but got woken up early.

    I took a zopiclone which gave me a decent sleep. I got woken up early though. The cat decided to have a loud zoomies session and then I needed to get up to pee. It’s so annoying because I hadn’t been asleep long. I have my alarm set for midday so I should get enough…