I managed to see daylight today. I only got a few hours sleep though. I am still very tired. I can’t type properly today either. I keep having to go back and retype words. It is dark now but at least I went out on my walk while it was still daylight. I can’t settle… Read More I saw daylight today.

I can’t sleep and it is starting to make me extremely frustrated. I want to smash things because I am so fed up with not sleeping at night. I just saw 555 on phone clock. I hate that number it is unlucky. I don’t want any more bad luck. I went out to get fresh… Read More I want to smash stuff in frustration.

I am slowly waking up today. This is reluctantly to take medication, eat something and feed the cats. I am working up to getting dressed. I drank a glass of water to wake up properly. I can relax for a bit now that the cats are fed. They won’t be bugging me until this evening… Read More I don’t like being awake yet.

It is nearly 5 am. I am highly doubtful that I will get to sleep at this point. I had a good work our, came home, had a bath, some food and then alcohol. I don’t feel drunk but still miss my friend so this is the easiest way to block that out. I won’t… Read More No sleep again.

I spent most of the day in bed after taking medication and having breakfast. I am not sleeping at night right now. Instead, I sleep when I can. Then, at least I get some sleep even if it isn’t much. I know that it isn’t practical to do this forever. I spend my nights really… Read More I’m trying my best…

End the practice of modern ‘forced adoption’ via the family court system. In the UK today, forced adoption is still occurring, via the family court system. The parental consent is disposed of by ‘order of the court’, basically this is now court appointed forced adoption. There are many vulnerable parents getting their children wrongfully adopted… Read More I need signatures to get petition to go live.

I told myself many times in the last couple of weeks that no one else’s behaviour would affect me. The problem is that I am really affected too much. I am starting to beat myself up regarding messing up and ruining a friendship to the point where it is now permanently finished. If it wasn’t… Read More I am really being affected now.

I have two sides of myself pulling me in opposite directions. One half of me wanted to move on. The other half of me can’t and that side is winning right now. I couldn’t sleep for the rest of the night because I am so frustrated with not having a person that I truly loved… Read More I thought I could but I can’t.

I was going to post this in the morning but since I have woken up at a stupid hour after not being asleep long I shall do it now. I have mentioned that I think like a child. That also means that I simply do not have the ability to be an intentional narcissist. I… Read More I don’t have the ability to be a narcissist.

I had a day when I didn’t do anything only popped out to the shop. I got a compliment on my hair despite the fact that I only brushed it over and went out. I have put stuff to defrizz it ready to straighten it but it still looks like a thick mop. I think… Read More Had a rest day. I wish that others understood certain things.