I didn’t sleep until late so didn’t wake up until early afternoon. I attempted to fix my hair but probably didn’t blend enough of it due to only having one bottle of bleach to fix it (my hair is so thick that it takes 2 to 3 depending on whether I am touching up roots… Read More Late start but busy day.

I am quite sure that I am probably not the only one unable to sleep due to warm close humid weather. Even the cats are not sure whether they want to be outside or on my bed tonight. I am also bugged by my hair colour. It can’t stay like this… it needs blending through… Read More The weather is making it impossible to sleep tonight.

I still am hurt at how people treat me of have treated me. That is how I feel under the new take no shit kind of persona. I wish things were different in many ideal worlds within all kinds of situations which have happened in my life. I never get to change anything which really… Read More It does upset me.

You can see people pop up in dreams who, according to others, really didn’t like you … thought you were weird etc. Someone I knew who was a lecturer when I went back to do my GCSE’s randomly started appearing in dreams every so often in 2020. I have no idea why. I hadn’t even… Read More Dreams have no link to waking life sometimes.

I have to be up tomorrow so totally decided to be lazy and spend most of the day in bed. I have things to do but I can do that while waiting for a phone call from 8 am in the morning. I am getting down about my weight. The scale is decreasing but the… Read More Lazy day. Switched off completely.

Inflated sense of ego was thrown in my face. This is why I have that facade now. I have put up with endless disrespect for many years. I get ignored and treated differently when people discover I am autistic. I have to fight for basic needs in life like health care and the only reason… Read More The level of disrespect over the years is why I am this now.

I would also appreciate it if ’friends’ don’t use my past to justify the nasty things that they say to me. That is pretty low and shows that they suck as a person. Telling me that if I had settled down with them instead of going off with people who didn’t want me then I… Read More Using my past against me to prove a point is also low.

I woke up to a message saying that my personality was awful this morning. I had to survive the most awful things. That was always on my own. I never saw any of the friends saying my personality sucks around at those times. I have only ever loved people and had it thrown back in… Read More I do not have a horrible personality either.

I know that I am not the most attractive woman. That was made clear to me at school from bullies who said I had an alright body but it was a shame about the face. I was just told that I am a 4. I am going to become a 10. Once I get to… Read More I hate the way so called friends talk to me. I deserve more than this!

I will start off with my good news. I got my letter through for my ultrasound appointment today. I have to go for it next month. I thought that I would have to wait longer than that given what the GP told me on the phone last month. Now, on to todays topic. I have… Read More Why can’t others be this way?