I didn’t sleep until after 5 am. That is when I last remember looking at the clock anyway. I was up again by half 10 but I haven’t woken up properly yet. I had a random dream but can’t remember any of it. At least I know that for once it was probably not a… Read More Waking up is quite hard today.

I regularly receive messages from other females either on their mans profile or their own. I get these messages simply for mostly being only friends with the men. I’m told that if other women see you as pretty this happens quite a lot? Well, seriously… I’m definitely not pretty or any viable threat to ‘steal… Read More The dating world is definitely not my cup of tea.

I was working on my numerology course until late last night. I found out some other stuff by calculating soul numbers. These basically show your inner desires. Some of which you may not even be aware of yet. I certainly wasn’t aware of what came up in my calculation. I always wondered why I enjoyed… Read More More things I’ve discovered from this numerology stuff.

I have been working my way through my numerology course. I found out that I share the same life path number as my niece. I’m a 5, which in my opinion seems to be the worse one I could possibly be. I’m sure that others wouldn’t mind being this description. ‘ You live for today… Read More Surprisingly, numerology can say a lot about people.

I couldn’t sleep again. I also feel quite ill because my monthly did finally come on. I have pains today 😦 . I need sleep because even my hair has gone dry. I don’t think that I slept enough over the last week. Constantly waking up eats many hours of sleep. If I wake up… Read More I need a break today. Sleep deprived and not well.

I went for a walk in the heat for only an hour. I feel a bit burnt even after only a short time in the sun. I just about managed to fit into my shorts because I put on a bit of weight. I can fit into the size 10 shorts at a stretch. I… Read More Walking was slightly hot today…

I finally accept myself. It’s taken over 30 years but I finally feel like I’ve turned a corner. I have suddenly started to love myself. I’m no longer seeing the imperfections in regards to how I look. I’m not feeling self conscious about if I’m sociably normal. I do get down sometimes but that is… Read More I love me 🙂

I finally managed to sit down for the first time today. I cleaned the windows. I got absolutely boiled by the sun. I probably got more than enough sun without having to go for a walk today. I’ve also done the vacuuming, disinfected the door handles and cleaned surfaces. I’m now waiting for my dinner… Read More Hot, been busy since I got up today.

I have decided that for someone who is naturally curvy to maintain a size 8 to 10 figure when approaching mid 30s. I want to be able to chill about having the odd cake without feeling overwhelmingly guilty about lacking self control afterwards. I already naturally lack energy so trying to stay a certain size… Read More I’m not bothered about my weight gain any longer.

I have my own issues alongside lockdown getting on my nerves. Some people seem to think that they can drink as much as they like and then message you in the middle of the night. That would have been okay if that is the only thing. However, they ended up putting me on edge all… Read More Stepping out…