I really want to get off of this rollercoaster. This is Pathological Demand Avoidance life at it’s worse. There desperately needs to be a proper diagnosis and support path produced and approved by NICE.

I feel completely fed up at the moment. I wish that I could get off what feels like a rollercoaster. And, I just found out about my incorrect usage of … punctuation. I always have used it when I wasn’t sure what to say, certainly not to imply that there was anything else which I… Read More I really want to get off of this rollercoaster. This is Pathological Demand Avoidance life at it’s worse. There desperately needs to be a proper diagnosis and support path produced and approved by NICE.

I feel energy and it’s unsettling me. I can’t even turn this negative energy off because it isn’t caused by my actions.

I’m aware that I can’t do anything otherwise I’ll end up in prison again. But, this doesn’t stop me feeling the stagnated energy. It’s not pleasant and I don’t feel that I should be the one to feel it because I’ve paid for what I’ve done by the punishment I received several times over. I… Read More I feel energy and it’s unsettling me. I can’t even turn this negative energy off because it isn’t caused by my actions.