I finally managed to watch the Paddy and Christine McGuinness autism documentary. I didn’t get around to watching it until tonight. It wasn’t as awful as I assumed it might be. Simon Baron-Cohen is not a popular name within the adult autistic community. I met him when I was sectioned in a psychiatric hospital when… Read More I managed to catch up with the Paddy and Christine McGuinness autism documentary

I was awake most of the night so that may be why I was basically like screw it I am tired today. The only time that my insomnia disappeared was when I had flu for a fortnight. This is my normal and I hate it! I just feel frustrated due to the fact that I… Read More I didn’t want to do anything today.

I also can’t sleep when I am feeling hungry either. I need to get my stomach used to not being full so that it doesn’t stop me sleeping or functioning when I am awake. As long as I drink fluids there is no need to eat a lot. I will have lost pounds in just… Read More I seriously need to not feel hunger.

I want to be happy surrounded by people that I like / love or whatever but as soon as I start making steps in that direction I get so insecure. I start thinking about my past experiences and it makes my anxiety extremely high. Then that kicks my autism behaviours off which tend to end… Read More Then … all my insecurities start to manifest.

I barely slept last and when finally woke up I felt stiff from the gym. I can move again now. I am having a little walk after doing what I had to do in town. That is one thing ticked off my never ending list. I have tidied up and cleaned a little of my… Read More Still disorganised but going through my to do list…

I did my 10,000 steps today and then went the gym after my evening meal. I had my hair and eyebrows done today. I am trying to go the gym while I can because apparently it is due to snow again and get colder so those conditions will make it harder to get over to… Read More Busy busy busy!

I have laid here for hours feeling very tired but sleep just isn’t happening. I swear that my brain refuses to function properly. I took an hour in the bath when I got home tonight. I lost track of time for a while. How can you feel like only 5 minutes has gone passed when… Read More Insomnia is back.

I created a few slideshows of the various images on my camera roll. They are either of me with various hair colours, art work and knitting attempts and my photography when I am out. Enjoy 😊

I feel extremely flat today. I didn’t do a lot. I barely slept last night. I have regretted opening myself up to making friends. I am feeling sad and breaking up about my own unresolved issues. That is why I avoid relationships. If someone is mentally breaking that I am emotionally invested in then I… Read More I have had one of those days.

I have seen the program advertised regarding paddy and christine mcguiness and autism to do with their children and recently christine was also officially diagnosed. I am sure that they do these programs with the most genuine intentions to increase awareness. I just have done the same for years since the age of 17 for… Read More I don’t like how people make money out of programs to do with autism.