I fell asleep for most of the day because I was tired. I did manage to get done most of the things I had to do. I have gone out to do my food shop while it’s quiet. Mum was still moaning about my weight gain earlier. She was like ‘I bet you can’t fit… Read More It has been one of those days.

I did get to sleep for about an hour. Then I was woken up by the cat who was spreading out while he slept. I was doing exactly the same so eventually we woke each other up. I got glared at before he strolled off in a huff. Then I couldn’t settle back down as… Read More I didn’t sleep much.

I slept last night but I still couldn’t stay awake today. I have a messy flat and was late to mums for dinner. I then got moaned at for being late. I’m struggling and all I get is nagging. Then I’m told that I’m fat because I drink alcohol. I’m too tired most of the… Read More I’m tired again. I wasn’t able to stay awake.

I cannot stand being constantly hassled by a relative any longer. I will get told to delete this due to how they tell me not to complain in public. I’m tired. Then I’m put in a state of stress by them constantly ringing my house phone earlier. I was chilled enough to sleep. It is… Read More I just can’t any longer!

I managed to sleep again last night. That is twice this week which is a positive sign. I woke up cold so turned on the heating. I’m now hot so I’ve turned off the heating and opened the window. I had my normal medication, antidepressants, when I woke up a few hours ago. I just… Read More I slept last night.

I have spoken to many people over the years involved in the uk system. There are particular patterns which I have noticed. For instance, school making out that the students they didn’t understand were made out to be extremely awful individuals on written records. The pattern continues even today. I don’t know if it’s part… Read More Patterns I have noticed …

I ended up drinking 8 little bottles last night. I was doing my university work and just got into a pattern of drinking while I was writing notes and typing up my work. I feel like crap this morning as I haven’t slept, due to sleep pattern being a mess, and feel sick. Why do… Read More I feel like shit, haven’t slept and regret drinking last night.

I managed to quit alcohol for two days. I’m treating myself tonight because it’s the weekend and it’s never a good idea to cold turkey from any substance if you’re so used to drinking it. I’m trying to learn control and moderation and this is the way is better to do it. I have them… Read More Managed two days but small treat at the weekend.

It has been one of those no sleep at all nights. I’m feeling too hot which hasn’t been helped by my cat coming to sit next to me. She has jumped off me to go to her food dish now. I didn’t drink alcohol last night for the first time in ages. I feel better… Read More I can’t sleep again… and now it’s basically morning.

I was meaning to get up much earlier today but it didn’t happen. But I did get on with half the things I should have been doing today. I’m on a walk again because I’m trying to do the whole weight loss thing as well as ditching the alcohol. I felt better for just drinking… Read More I’m up stupidly late. I got most things done though!