I haven’t been able to sleep all night. I gave up trying to sleep at 4am. I got a drink of water on the way back from the toilet. I haven’t drank water for a few days. I have been drinking tea and a Pepsi Max per day. I don’t drink enough water but I… Read More I don’t think I will ever have a consistent sleep pattern.

I’m not trying to get ASDA (not naming the location but it’s not the nearest to me) into trouble but I noticed something else rather wrong in their store today. I found a live insect in my raspberries a few months ago. I didn’t report it. I saw it as a one off because it… Read More Supermarkets aren’t like they used to be….

I still couldn’t sleep the whole night. I’m exhausted. I don’t feel well. I’m gaining weight at a stupid rate. I am totally ashamed at how large my thighs seem to be. I feel hungry but also sick. I got up after admitting defeat at about 4am. I took a cup of tea back to… Read More Okay, my sleep pattern is still a mess.

I don’t feel well but at least I slept last night. I may have napped this morning due to having not caught up on a lot of sleep recently. I’m going to have to build myself back up to the point where I don’t miss that insomnia-stolen sleep. I need to change things for my… Read More I can’t be the same any longer.

I have decided, after a discussion with my blog’s editor pet sloth, to revert back to the original name of this blog. Instead of ‘Musings of a Trainee Battleaxe’ it will now be ‘Diary of a Painfully Shy Introvert’. We need to leave the link as it is right now because I could lose most… Read More Blog changes / Depression

Children in Need always brings certain feelings to the boil for those of us who have been continuously failed by the system. I probably say a similar thing every year but it is an important point. PDA children aren’t going to be the ones who benefit from these types of fundraisers. I do not have… Read More I cannot succeed in a system that is set up to cause certain groups of people to fail!

I am aware that I should have been relieved that I didn’t get pregnant that night. I feel heartbroken over not being though. It may not have been the right time but this news has made me feel raw over losing my first child to adoption. I feel like I lost him all over again… Read More Too heartbroken to sleep 😦

I feel like the weather today. I had to go out to an appointment. The water on the roads is beyond ridiculous. Some of the roads are starting to resemble mini-rivers. Luckily I got through them without my car going wrong. It’s only a small car and I was quite nervous that it would just… Read More Today is the definition of rain in many ways!

I am already in bed before 11pm. I have an early start and attempted to reset sleeping pattern, which means I am ready to sleep soon. I’m just having a cup of tea and taking a paracetamol for my migraine caused by trying to stay awake until a reasonable hour. It is hard training myself… Read More A few observations and my long term future.

I have been digging for information (through totally legal channels) to discredit the person that caused an indefinite restraining order and prison sentence for me. I want to take the case back for review at a later date to try to get it removed. I need to do that for my own future protection. I… Read More Digging up information to protect myself.