Apparently today is the most depressing day of the entire year. I can’t really say that for me it has been any more depressing than other days of the year. I have still got a lot of things to sort in my flat. That is getting me down because just looking at it feels like… Read More #BlueMonday – Demand avoidance severe today.

Those that know me will be aware of my ‘gifts’. I randomly feel things. I felt like I was going to cry at a stupid time of night, well very early morning. I find some things intrusive. I know that wasn’t my feelings because I wasn’t upset about anything. I just want to get back… Read More I find my ‘gifts’ intrusive sometimes.

I am aware that my flat isn’t looking perfect yet but it is looking a lot better. I’m trying to pace myself otherwise it will end up a demand but also use the little energy I have at the moment. I’m quite happy with the amount of things that I have managed to get done… Read More I’m slowly going from disorganised to organised…. at a snails pace but making progress.

There is a widely held view that those with Autism do not have empathy. We have that thrown in our faces constantly. However those not Autistic cannot emphasize with how they make us feel and how their decisions affect our lives. But they certainly want us to emphasize when it is the other way around.… Read More Why should I be the only one that takes responsibility here or has empathy?

I really do not want to upset anyone else but I cannot help how I’m being affected by things. I am not a danger to anyone. No one needs protecting from me. I’m a weakling who cannot fight even if my life depended on it. Contrary to popular belief, I am also not a psycho… Read More I’m sorry I cannot help the way I am affected…

I finally made myself go for a walk today. I walked nearly 7 miles. It wasn’t as long as my normal walks but it was a start of less laziness. I was in pain for most of the week. The last thing I felt like doing was walking miles. I told myself that I wouldn’t… Read More Normal … what’s normal to one person is abnormal to another.

This is the truth. I don’t want people I know to keep telling me that I don’t deserve to feel bad and that the other person involved was the awful one. That isn’t right at all. I hassled the other person for over 3 years because I wanted a friend. I didn’t know that it… Read More The truth. I deserved to go to Prison. And I should feel bad for how I acted.

I have had nightmares for the last few nights. It is stressing me out because it makes the hurt of the things I’ve been through feel raw again. I also feel quite guilty because I didn’t want another person to lose their job. I know that others tell me it’s karma but I’m not an… Read More Stressed by nightmares.

I have lots of different people telling me what different options to chose. I have got to the point where I am totally confused. I know what I want to do but I feel that it is probably not practical right now. I really want to move but I simply cannot leave this flat in… Read More I have no idea what I should do.

I shall start with an issue that has cropped up for me today. I had a smart meter installed when I changed to the company OVO. This company has since been taken over by Boost. The prices have been put up so I decided to try to switch. I found a company called E Energy that would… Read More A few issues…