I am on the GiffGaff network for my mobile phone because I didn’t want another contract which ties me down for 2 years or some other stupid length of time. I have their Always on* Goody Bag because it literally does everything for a decent price. They’ve put it up recently from £20 to £25.… Read More Phone networks are completely unreliable at the moment.

I feel completely fed up at the moment. I wish that I could get off what feels like a rollercoaster. And, I just found out about my incorrect usage of … punctuation. I always have used it when I wasn’t sure what to say, certainly not to imply that there was anything else which I… Read More I really want to get off of this rollercoaster. This is Pathological Demand Avoidance life at it’s worse. There desperately needs to be a proper diagnosis and support path produced and approved by NICE.

I am known for bringing up controversial topics. This is going to stir up strong opinions from those that have relatives or friends in either prison or mental health units. I am going to make this comment as I’ve experienced both in my life and can therefore make a comparison. I am being honest from… Read More This is why prison is better than mental health services.

I wasn’t going to go out today but my family persuading me to go to have Sunday lunch at their home. I didn’t feel up to driving but had to go out anyway to get things for the cats on the way. I tried to avoid a car at traffic lights as the road curved… Read More Bad luck doesn’t seem to be going away. And, I reiterate my flat rules.

I’m aware that I can’t do anything otherwise I’ll end up in prison again. But, this doesn’t stop me feeling the stagnated energy. It’s not pleasant and I don’t feel that I should be the one to feel it because I’ve paid for what I’ve done by the punishment I received several times over. I… Read More I feel energy and it’s unsettling me. I can’t even turn this negative energy off because it isn’t caused by my actions.

I don’t know how I’ve managed to get a huge bruise on my thigh but it came up today after my leg had been hurting for a few days. I probably walked into something because I’m that clumsy. I may have bashed my bags into my leg when I walked back from the supermarket a… Read More Massive Bruise and weight gain 😦

I did something I’ve never managed to do before. I was resting because I’m very tired at the moment. I feel drained and really not able to settle at the same time. That is a contradiction in itself but it is exactly how I feel at the moment. I was that tired that I learned… Read More Developed a new skill.

I’ve had one of those days where I don’t know how I feel. I haven’t barely replied to messages, so if you asked me something and I didn’t get back to you please don’t take it personally. I’m just feeling flat at the moment. I haven’t even been for a walk today. I just needed… Read More I don’t know.

I keep having nightmares and strange dreams that seem coded but I cannot understand them. It is so very confusing.  It’s all around prison etc. Enclosed environments. I can’t remember every single detail but they were quite cryptic. I didn’t think that I was going to feel affected by my experiences because I thought that… Read More Nightmares and other strange dreams.

I’d like to cover this as a topic because I feel that it is really important to point out that not everyone wants to date another person. I’m just not interested. I have absolutely no desire to be in a relationship. I’m used to being single and I actually enjoy alone time. I do not… Read More Dating etc. It’s just not a priority for me.